Another Christmas without You Cole ~ Another holiday season where you are missed so much. We've made it through another year ~ another difficult year of yearning for you to be here with us.



Grammy knows that you are having the best Christmas' of all ~ those spent with Jesus and I know he watches over you so that is my comfort.



Each year it's getting a little 'softer' ~ a little more bearable ~ but perhaps that's because I know it's one year closer to seeing you again and holding you.



Mommy and Daddy are doing better too ~ they still miss you from the bottom of their hearts and they'll never be the same without you but they know that you are safe in Heaven and playing with the Angels and that they will see you again. I've prayed so hard for comfort for them and for me ~ and God has heard my prayers.



No parent should ever have to bury their child. No Grammy should ever have to bury their grandchild and comfort their child who is overwhelmed with grief. It makes no sense to me but I know it happens to so many so there must be a reason for it. God's Master Plan? Wish I understood it ~ but honestly I don't. I can only trust in Him and know that someday I'll get the answers to these questions that have haunted my life since you have been gone.

Tell Jesus Happy Birthday and enjoy Christmas with all the other Angels that are so missed by so many.

Love,
Grammy

I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below,
with tiny lights like heaven's stars reflecting on the snow.

The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away that tear
for I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year

I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear,
but the sounds of music can't compare with the Christmas choir up here.

I have no words to tell you the joy their voices bring,
for it is beyond description to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me, I see the pain inside your heart,
for I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I can't tell you of the splendor or the peace here in this place
Can you just imagine Christmas with our Savior face to face?

I'll ask Him to lift your spirit as I tell Him of your love,
so then pray for one another as you lift your eyes above.

Please let your hearts be joyful and let your spirit sing,
for I am spending Christmas in heaven and I'm walking with the King.

Copyright 1998
by Wanda Bencke
Used with permission

I miss you each and every day
I miss the part where we get to play
I long to touch your soft sweet face
I pray to God for strength and grace

Christmastime is so very hard
I can't even send out those pretty cards
No one wants to really hear
How hard it's been without you here.

Some think it's time I should move on ~
How do I do that when a piece of my heart is gone?
Soon Christmas will be here & I'll put on my happy face
For Dillon, Brynna, Jake & "Mace"

Christmas Day I'll long to see you here ~
Opening your presents and grinning ear to ear
Just know my sweet precious Cole
That I carry you every day in my heart and soul.

Love,
Grammy

Written for Cole December 2003