I miss my Mom each and every day. My Mom's life was never easy but she was the strongest person I have ever known. She was divorced from my Dad when I was 2 yrs old. She remarried and her second husband was an alcoholic who committed suicide when she was only 46. She never remarried. She loved her children and her grandchildren and lived long enough to see great-grandchildren whom she adored.

After she died, for several years, I'd catch myself wanting to call her to tell her something and then realizing that she was gone.

The comfort I have is that I believe in an afterlife ~ I believe she's in Heaven ~ and I know she had a joyous reunion with her first child and only son who died as an infant. She had lost her own mother when she was only 14 years old so I believe that was just one more loved one waiting for her in Heaven. She was one of 5 siblings ~ next to the last to pass away ~ and now her last brother is gone so I'm sure they had a great family reunion in Heaven.

When my own grandson died, the only comfort I could offer my daughter was that she had to know that her Grandma Nicoll was taking care of him now. I believe they all await us when it's our time. My arms long to hold my grandson and to hug my Mom once again.

Missing You Always

How can I tell you, my sweet Mom
of what you meant to me
with your smile as bright as bright moonbeams
and your eyes as blue as the sea

I've often thought of how you felt
to lose your only boy
a tiny babe, so innocent
your reason for pure joy

I've wondered how you could be strong
and face another day
the pain must have been so hard to bear
when he was called away

I can smell your fragrance and see your smile
and your words I seem to hear
that "pretty is as pretty does"
they still ring loud and clear

When I watched you as a child
getting ready for your day
I thought you were so beautiful
and I think so yet today

If I could only see that smile
~ be with you for just a minute
There are so many things I'd tell you now
My life's lonely without you in it

I miss you more each passing day
but I know you are at rest
For the years I had you here with me
My life was truly blessed.

Copyright 2002~Kacey

Thank you Kacey for writing this poem for me.